Oh God, What If?
Oh God, what if –
I were to You obey –
With all my life, through all my days,
endure my cross, obey Your will,
regardless the pain or strife I feel
Bear humiliations and sorrow’s
Brave disgrace and live bereft
Face the choice of a martyr’s short, short life
Just to live my life for Christ?
My Lord, yet still – what if following You–
Means my dreams go forfeit, my hopes askew,
What if all I’ve wanted, dreamt or needed
Must pass beyond my life unheeded,
What if I must live in abject loss,
To live Your love, to bear my cross
Until the time my soul seeks rest.
What if this I must do to serve You best?
When I first agreed to bear my cross –
You told me then I could suffer great loss –
of life or friends, of hopes or deeds –
You did not promise my life at ease –
But tribulation during each one’s walk
Tribulation for those who truly bear their cross
Never once did You lie, or misrepresent –
The tears I could cry, the clothes I should rent –
The chance of great sorrows or a martyr’s life spent –
To serve You, and serve You, and serve You – best!
Oh God, what if – through bearing these shames
Through living these despairs – my Savior should reign
Amid all personal losses – as I often hazard death
Amass living souls for Christ – at the taming of my flesh
And from Hell’s fires – countless souls plucked from strife
Won through obedience – more souls saved for Christ?
Heavenly Father then what if – for You I should die –
to my-self – at the price of my pride –
what if my dreams – to You I must give –
to walk Your will – and for others live –
And through these others – in You they abide –
to save more souls – and live for Christ,
what greater dreams – could You have dreamt for me –
what better life – could I have lived for Thee –
how many more souls – to You could I give
Souls You set free – because I lived –
For this my life – for this great cause –
I surrender my hopes – I surrender my life.
Satisfaction Discovered in Love:
What then my God – what better task–
if these were the things – of me You asked?
Let not crashing waves nor mountains high
Oceans deep or height of skies –
Stand between or on the brink
For You I’ll live my life succinct,
thus fill my heart with courage and strength
I’ll follow thee, this cup I’ll drink
I’ll love You, Lord and love Your ways
I’ll love my God beyond end of days,
Embrace my cross and live for Christ
I love You Lord, please take my life! Amen!
Poem by: Steven R. Harrel
Began: 6/2/2010 – Finished July 17th 2015