For many years I had a tremendous friendship with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
Then one day I forgot He was more than just my friend and I took that friendship and relationship for granted.
I disobeyed even as the Lord continued to warn me. He said, “NO!”
For my disobedience the Lord lifted the sense of His presence for nearly three years. I did not feel His loving presence nor did I know if it would ever return. I had known God’s presence, almost, my entire life. I had never not known that expression of my God. I was crushed under the silence and aloneness. I wrote this in my great sorrow. 😦
Forever and All Times
Lord, long, I have known You,
Gave You my life, heart and soul,
With all my strength I’ve served You,
By Your grace forever let it be so.
Then willfully I abandoned,
Commandments You did bring,
To me whom much was given,
The same I forgot required indeed.
I knew it was forbidden,
Thus great punishment deserved, received.
For years You plied Your lessons
Till certain I believed,
I missed Your sweet, sweet presence,
My heart’s most central yearn!
I thought You would dismiss it,
As a friend to friend miss-deed,
But I Forgot — God, –Creator,
Much more than friend to me art Thee!
Forgive my trespass grievous
Against My God, my King, my Friend,
Most erudite of lessons,
Help me n’er to err again!
I need You Lord, my Savior,
My God, Redeemer, dear Friend,
At all times, ever beside me,
May Your Spirit, Your love n’er be missed again,
I love You Lord, more than living,
Forever and all times in Your presence beyond the end.
To: My Great & Almighty God, From: a least and wayward son
Thankfully, my punishment ended and His sense of presence was restored.
Words cannot describe the tremendous relief.
THANK YOU, MY LORD!